It's been a long time since I posted something. I'm sorry. I need a netbook. That might help.
Well I might be changing the focus of this blog a bit. I hope you don't mind (and I don't really care...sorry). It's time for me to get real about my life from top to bottom. I've switched jobs, which has been AMAZING. My new boss is wonderful and I actually have stuff to do. And she's nice, which is more than I can say for some of my past superiors.
I'm still going strong in my relationship with my boyfriend. Three and half years, and going strong.
I have a wonderful family, wonderful relationships, and a wonderful job. So what do I mean, "Starting Over?"
Well it's time for me to get the physical together.
I'm huge. Maybe not the hugest person in America or at my office or whatever. But I'm often the biggest person in the room, biggest person in the photo, etc. And that's just not cool. Plus I'm getting old. Maybe not the oldest person in America or at my office or whatever. But still. I want to have babies and to play with them and to be cute in my maternity clothes (and my non-maternity clothes).
I saw a picture that a friend took of me this past weekend in one of my favorite dresses. Let's just say I won't be wearing that dress anymore this summer. I was appalled. And shocked honestly. I've never seen myself like that before, and it's not cool. #Unacceptable.
It's time. It's over time. So this is my start. I plan to tell you all about the trek to losing this weight.
I just signed up for Weight Watchers (3rd time's a charm, right?) and talked to my boss about working out at the office. I promised the guy at the gym he's see more of me again, and I promised myself too. It's time.
So I'm starting over. I'm going to cook. I'm going to sweat. And I'm going to succeed. It's hard to explain how failure feels, and even harder to explain how it feels to fail multiple times at the same thing (it's not even allowed in the justice system). But I've done it. And I may fail again. But I'm not going to stop trying this time. I'm going to keep at it. I may never be a size 6 (uh...actually I know I'll never be) but that's not even what I want. I just want to be a better version of me (how could it even get better than this though?????? )
Thanks for the support in advance. I appreciate it.
